My son was Dylan Klebold, one of the two shooters at Columbine High School in 1999.
I would gladly give my life to reverse what happened that day and yet I know that nothing I can do or say could ever atone for Dylan’s choices, choices that I have spent the last sixteen years trying to understand. I wish I had known then what I know now: that it was possible for everything to seem fine with him when it was not, and that behaviors I mistook as normal for a moody teenager were actually subtle signs of psychological deterioration.
Although it is very hard for me to share my story—to lay bare my heart and the inner workings of my family—I feel a moral imperative to share the insights I have gleaned to help other families see the signs when their children need help.
Today I am an advocate for mental health awareness, research and suicide prevention. By writing A Mother’s Reckoning, I hope to shine a light on these important issues. Through my Colorado public benefit corporation (PBC), Vention Resources, Inc., PBC, all author profits that I or my PBC would have ordinarily received from the publication of this book, after reasonable expenses, will be used to fund charitable organizations who share my goals and strive to address these concerns, including Mental Health America (MHA), National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI), American Foundation for Suicide Prevention (AFSP), American Association of Suicidology (AAS) and Brain & Behavior Research Foundation.
— SUE KLEBOLD
Sue Klebold has spent the last 15 years excavating every detail of her family life, and trying to understand the crucial intersection between mental health problems and violence. Instead of becoming paralyzed by her grief and remorse, she has become a passionate and effective agent working tirelessly to advance mental health awareness and intervention. In addition to volunteering on local non-profit boards for suicide prevention organizations, Sue is a member of the National Loss and Healing Council of the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention (AFSP), and is a member of the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline Consumer-Survivor Subcommittee. She has participated in presentations, co-chaired conferences at the state and national levels, and written about the experience of surviving a loved one’s murder-suicide.